I'm not the same person I was four years ago. I used to be very selfish, self-centered, bitchy, shallow, obnoxious, and sort of closed-minded. While I am still some of those things, it's definitely not as strong. I was kind of a shitty person, but I was also self-confident, outgoing, happy, and didn't take shit from anyone. I don't particularly like the person I have become. She's afraid of everything and won't take any sort of risk. She has very little confidence and no sense of self-worth. She's totally self-conscious even writing this bullshit. I feel like a shell of a human being, as overdramatic as that sounds. My life has completely fallen apart and I have no idea how to even begin to fix it. I guess I just have a terrible case of the blahs (if by blahs you mean moderate depression).
Let's hope things start to look up soon. I don't know how much more of this I can handle.